-Halfwits Journal-
-Halfwits Journal-
Did a BIG overhaul on the site, I like how it looks a lot more now. Interests and Review tabs will be created within the next couple days. I know my 1.5 megafans are just DYING to see them, but in due time my friends. Had an odd dream where I was in my home backyard, everything outside of the fence was just a sprawling feild. The air had a golden light about it, like what I was seeing was through that 1920's yellowish photo film. Me and a girl (that seemed familiar, but can't place her name) were climbing up a pair of lone trees up towards something in the sky. My family were all at the base watching us. Then I closed my eyes as a branch slowly cracked under my weight, I could of hopped to another branch, but I just hung there feeling the soft breeze as it finally gave way. On the way down, I couldn't feel the pain, but every branch I hit I felt the pressure of my bones breaking and spine cracking. When I finally hit the ground I was paralyzed, and with my eyes I wrote in the sky, "hurt, stuck" but nobody came. Wow! That was wacky! I have periods where I dream a lot, then times when I wont dream at all for a couple weeks. One dream I had in highschool was about a maze game, and for a month afterward I got hyperfixated on it, I even learned a bit of blender cause I wanted to make it 3D, but like most things, I didn't get close to making anything presentable.
I wish that I would finish more of the projects I start, I have so many half baked animations and drawings just wasting away in my files. The positive though is that I look back on them and say, "hey those look like ass, I'm a lot better at that now", but I still wished I had finished them and they went out into the world. This is a terrible mindset probably, but I feel like I almost wasted most of my life so far because I have nothing to show for the 18 years of it. Prob being to overdramatic, but that's kind of what this site is for. I want to know more things and have more skills, and here will be a good place to organize them. Also, found a cool nature themed blog about practical skills and renewables Sprig and Quill check them out if you're interested.
"It's like there's an instruction manual that explains how to talk to people and everyone in the world got a copy except me" Banana Man, Adventure Time
I see people walking in the night. I wonder if they are even people at all. What if when the lights go out, when the sun falls deep under the horizon, we can see things that in the daytime are obscured by its light? I was playing Deltarune today, just beat Spamton Neo Snowgrave for the first time! Ralsei's little monologue at the beginning of Chapter 3 "What if it became even darker? Darker than dark. What if we could take away the light that wasn't there. Until we reached another side? If that were to happen... You could start to see things again," gave me a thought, and maybe Toby Fox began with this thought, what if in the night we see things like UFOs, spirits, and cryptids are entities that exist in a different world, or use a technology that obscures them from our world. However, in the night, with no light as a safeguard, slips and errors occur.
Y'know how theres Neutrinos, the subatomic particles that are actually everywhere, but rarely, if ever, react with normal matter to the extent that we build enormous detectors to even find a couple of them. What if theres more? Particles that don't interact with matter, atleast not in a conventional physical way, that are everywhere. There could be an infinite number of layers, all on top of eachother, all taking up the same space but not breaking any laws because they are not effected by the others presence. I've wondered what if one of these layers of phantom particles IS consiouness, that life is the way that one of these "Consion" particles interact with regular matter. That the whole mystery of the physicality of mind is that our brain is the biologically created detector of this particle, and it has been evolved to exploit them into the experience of living. Ghosts in the night could be our minds seeing the other layer, a short moment of increased connection to that dimension where we see another cloud of mind particles detatched from their matter body after death, or a different creature evolved there all together. Idk just a funny little thought, could be used for a story, probably would be difficult cause of how farfetched the idea is.
Started rewatching the X-Files today, definetly going to be having a big UFO spot in the Interests tab, so I wanted to get my conspiracy juices flowing, as you can see above I think it worked lol. Listened to a lot of old Art Bell radio recordings a while ago and will probably talk about some of my favorite stories from there too. I go back and forth on aliens, it'd be cool if they were around, a whole alternate history on an alternate world with alternate life, amazing. However, Humans evolved to be conquerers, to destroy those different from us and allow our own genetic tree to flourish, and likely other intelligent life began the same way. Our relationship would be one of war and death I fear. Or, we could be the first, would definetly explain up that ol' Fermi Paradox (Fun Fact: Fermi also first to consider the existence of neutrinos and designed the first working nuclear reactor) We have the whole galaxy to make our home, and if new life does come along, maybe we'd be advanced enough to guide them in the right direction. Putting all this stuff in the interests tab when its made and will be more cohesive and understandable then.
"Even if I knew that tomorrow the world would go to pieces, I would still plant my apple tree today." Martin Luther, kind of? First conclusively said by Karl Lotz, 1944
Its so cold out, -9 F right now, walking outside as the little flakes of snow rip across your face feels like glass tearing right through you. Atleast there is fluffy snow on the ground, it's awful when it gets around early March as it all just turns to a messy gray slush. I really would like to wake up earlier to see the winters sunrise, also to go to my 8am classes, but this time of year my sleep schedule always gets fucked up because of the season. Those light boxes that simulate sunlight would probably be helpful, or working out. I shouldn't rely on motivation to do things like that, but in the grey scale winter I just feel so lethargic.
My roomate Vinny (he'll probably come up alot) is writing a pilot script for a little indie show right now that us and our friends will have parts in. Look up Shiftless or Roomates on Youtube, thats what it'll be similar to, but we're not planning on posting it anywhere, sorry Halfwits megafans! I need to finish my Newgrounds banner, work on physics homework, and get some reading done today. Currently reading Golden Son, 2nd book in the Red Rising series by Pierce Brown, highly reccomend if you like Hunger Games, Maze Runner, or The Testing, all books I very much do enjoy. Oh, and I've been watching all of the Studio Ghibli movies in order, currently on Porco Rosso and I'm enjoying it. The iconic ones like Spirited Away and Kiki I've watched many times before. Princess Mononoke is my alltime favorite, and Totoro is most nostalgic as it reminds me of my grandma. Anyway, I want to watch all the ones I've never seen because I really enjoy the history and style.
College was, atleast I thought, supposed to be so different than highschool, and while it is definetly different, it doesn't feel that different, differenciate the difference of those differences. Classes feel like just an extension of highschool, a grade 13 if you will. Don't get me wrong, physics and chemistry are super cool and interesting, but they're taught just in a lecture hall and it's all take notes, then test, repeat. I guess I'd like more projects, though my Natural Hazards class is really neat! Also, I thought I was going to be friends with everyone, and know everyone here, but just like in highschool I'm still so irrationally nervous to talk to new people that I'm huddled down yet again with a small friend group, which is fine. I want to know people though, see almost anyone in the hall and be able to say Hi! [Insert cool inside joke that we've formed]. But I'm just an ant going about my tasks, not bothering with anyone else. The graveyard behind the dorm is great though, will be putting photos of it in the gallery.
"Sometimes... I just feel like I'm a boat upon a winding river, twisting towards an endless, black sea. Further and further drifting from where I want to be. Who I want to be." Wirt, Over The Garden Wall
AH! HI! This is so cool!! First off thank you Kaylon for showing me neocities, it's actually so awesome everybody coming together here to recreate a little slice of old internet. On that note, thank YOU for checking this out!! Its neat to think you could be looking at this message YEARS into the future and took the time to come all the way to the FIRST SHINY NEW ENTRY! I have much planned for this site, so many past and future creative projects will all be collected here as my own little hub. I reckon I oughta make the Drawing page next so I can start on that.
Alright I've been working hard on this all of today so schoolwork been put off a bit. The next entry will PROBABLY be more journal like.
"The Cosmos is all that is, or ever was, or ever will be." Carl Sagan, 1980